Apparently, I'm not depressed just obsessive. And I wish my obsessiveness was directed at keeping my place clean instead of the direction it has been heading.
Ever since I'm stopped taking the meds, I've had a certain type of thought continue to run through my head. Mostly, when I'm at home and not really engaged in anything else. I don't really remember having these kinds of thought patterns before but I was on the meds long enough that I don't really remember what it was like before that. Especially in the place I am now. Before, I was still living in Steamboat with a fairly strong support system that I could talk things out. I have that here but to a much smaller degree. And sometimes I feel I have to watch what I say or it will come back to haunt me.
Geez, I feel like everytime I write something here, I'm just working the same question over and over again.
Try this, we finally had our first thundershowers today. Actually the thunder and lightning started last night. It has been a long time since I heard thunder (except for that thundersnowstorm we had last month) with rain and lightning. I was talking to another person today about how I still miss the all day thunderstorms back in the midwest. We just don't get those here. Hell, by the time I left work today the sun was out and pretty much everything was completely dry.
And I've had the Avett Brothers stuck in my head all week.
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